M y brother's baby is due this week. There have been some false starts and I'm feeling jumpy every time the phone rings.
He doesn't have time to talk, so I sit down with my sister Charlotte for a not-so-quiet talk about birth, and the end of my pregnancy. I'd thought once I was home, I could start to focus on getting everything ready for your birth, but as it turns out, this period is not to be all about you and me.
During this strange time, three of us are in hospital within weeks of each other. Charlotte's gall stones are a horrible thing to have to deal with, but it is our father who becomes the real worry as 2013 begins. He is suddenly very ill. I go to meet my midwife, the first of several visits. My mother comes with me for the first appointment. I'd decided I'd like her to be at the birth, and she agreed.
I didn't really want anyone I know to see me in that state, but I certainly didn't want to go through it alone, so this is what we decided. She comes with me to the first birth class too. Walking into the room full of couples is strangely intimidating. I turn 39. Cass and I have a joint birthday party. It's great, and makes me feel like I still have a bit of a life. But there is a dark shadow over everything as my Dad's surgery looms.
I'm not as agile as I tried to convince myself I am. The intense heat is hard to cope with. I look at my legs one afternoon and they've swollen so much they're unrecognizable! It scares me. I decide it's time to go home, slow down and settle into the air-conditioned comfort of my mother's house for the final weeks.
You can come now Astrid, I’m ready!
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